Tuesday, April 8, 2014

what it's been

Life's turned into a crazy cyclone for me these past two years that I haven't barely touched blogging, and when i did, i made a new one, thinking i would start all over again.
Now knowing that didn't get a very good jumpstart at all. I feel like staying with my first, and most successful blog is the best choice. [not like i'll be posting more then once in a sherbet moon]
I don't know if i like the idea of blogging, i got caught up in it right around 13, i loved it. I'll make a post about that later.
For now?
i'll tell you a wee bit about how i enjoy living life, even when its hard, growing up, being a teenager, almost reaching the age of 18, being one of the last siblings living at home with parents who aren't exactly my "best friend." I still am very thankful they've stuck around, and loved me, in my life so far.

life gets hard. real, hard. 
[can i get a high-five here?!]

whether it be friends, brothers and sisters, parents, myself, God, school, people, that guy on across the street calling you  a b*tch just because your holding a friends baby.. What ever it is.
sometimes it's the littlest things. That doesn't meant it doesn't matter to God.
God knows.
God cares.
God wants you to know he loves you, and cares about what is hurting you.

Nothing like a bowl of shredded wheat, and the Oxford Annotated Bible on a good afternoon of all blessings from above, when nothing else could get worse...
I read the story of Noah, in the inspiration of the new movie, that i've heard is out.
Loads of thoughts about it, whether it's biblical or not. I'm sure it's still has some good things you can see from it. i mean, hey. It might drive a lot of people to actually READ what really happened. 
later that night, a bunch of new crazy feelings got thrown into my head. the feeling of hurt, care, judgement, sadness for others.. and a few more i can't even start to describe.
I can't even tell you how many times i cried.
I gave it all up to jesus, and you know what? i don't feel as i once did. like my shoulders were holding everything. I may still think about it, feel somewhat the same. -but to know, and have faith that God can do anything, is a comfort to me. 

My wish for you today, is if anything is bothering you, at all, take it to the lord.

Psalm 55:22 NET
Throw your burden upon the LORD, and he will sustain you. He will never allow the godly to be upended. 
upend |ˌəpˈendverb with obj. ]
set or turn (something) on its end or upside down.Philippians 4:6-7 GDTNever worry about anything. But in every situation let God know what you need in prayers and requests while giving thanks.
request |riˈkwestnoun
an act of asking politely or formally for something


*Lizzie* said...

Lovely post, Rachel! Thanks for sharing! I think we can all agree that sometimes life can be super hard and painful. It's amazing how sometimes one sentence from someone can be so hurtful and take us down. But God is never changing, and knows how we feel better than we know ourselves!

Yes! It is so incredibly comforting knowing that God knows us and the situation better than we do, and we can trust Him and hand over the burdens to Him.
Thanks again for sharing :) think I needed to hear this today :)

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